Singing for His glory.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

- 1:05 AM

It's been a really fun day.
Dinner at joseph's house in celebration of his 21st birthday. :)) really liked what he said, about thanking God and celebrating the new life He's given us, and that we've lived 21 years of our lives with His protection over us. =))

Sunday service is gonna be awesome tml. I just know it. Thought I'd study a little into the night just in case I don't get time to revise tml... and while doing so I'm just doing a lil' entry for myself. :)

I've downloaded loads and loads of podcasts on iTunes and I'm very excited about it because im finally using the space in my iPod, hahaha! and also because I have more materials to feed on! Was at the Entrepreneurship Seminar on Thurs... Enjoyed myself and am even more sure that I'm called to do business! And even if I'm just being stubborn albeit not being called, then Daddy will use even a donkey to speak to me if He has to! ^^

Always wonder like when will he come....? When will I know who will be my life partner... hahaha. One who is crazily in love with me... like Jesus. Being real, sometimes I still do think about such stuffs. hahaha...~ As I see the things the guys around me do for their gfs/wives, I just think, it really has to be God. For them to remember birthdays and do it up extravagantly (doesn't mean it involves a lot of money; just really sweet surprises and the extra effort they took), for them to always want to see the woman 24/7, being sad if they can't send them home, playing along when the gf acts cute... I told Jesus, yes you can do all those, and you're doing awesome! but will there really be a man for me who can do all these? Ppl always say, it's good to be open; doesn't mean a man doesn't have ALL the qualities in your 24643541635486km long list means he's out. But I really want leh. hahaha... like Jesus like that. LOL... But yes. Man is imperfect.

Just a while more till I go to sleep. Jesus shall multiply my quality rest and amount of time for sleep! Yay...

And ye su, sarang hae. :)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

- 11:30 PM

I have no idea why I revived this blog... deleted a lot of my previous posts. hahaha... they were so emo I couldn't believe it. Then, it just dawned on me, Daddy God has indeed transformed me from glory to glory. :))

Just felt like writing... just doing an entry esp since no one knows this blog is alive. again. Hahaha... just me and Jesus, feels so shiok. Sigh... I have an assignment due this Thursday, and I'm now doing up only half of it... Daddy I know it's poor time management on my side, thank you Daddy for no condemnation, and grace grace for my assignment! ^^

Read a post about my ex-fav kpop artiste... photos of him smoking. Hmmm... I really thank Jesus for the constant wooing on his part, I just can't help but keep getting romanced by him Again and Again. =)) And when I read that, all I felt was just, he needs Jesus. =) he can be a singer, appearing on music shows and radios, variety shows, performing his hit song, being the fashionista he is, but when Jesus is involved, I know that his work will be even more graced, and the music he produces shall be coated with His anointing. :)

I wanna be addicted to Him. Addicted to my Jesus. My bridegroom. Holding my hand always. Feeling His tangible presence. And seeing Him face to face. Literally. =))

Friday, April 24, 2009

- 6:32 PM

故事概要

是的，他爱上她了。但一切都太迟了。美丽的紫璇已爱上了俊玉，来不及了。
没错，古俊玉“刚好”是他最要好的朋友。人生如戏，戏如人生嘛。

龙闪杰，你这个笨蛋！后悔了吧。

嘿！你问我是谁啊？哈哈，你不是希望时间能够倒流吗？

倒流。。。嗯。。。倒流？！

如今难得的机会摆在面前。一个可以回到从前的机会，从新让紫璇爱上他。
他会回吗？

代价？哈！猜中了，天下没有免费的午餐。
我要。。。古俊玉。

Amidst the exams, it feels refreshing to just write scenes for my upcoming novel. Haha... yes I say it like I'm gonna complete a full novel. Visualisation and speaking forth. :)

Sunday, March 02, 2008

- 11:21 PM

<他>

还记得初次见面，是在某一个草场上。我被他的飞碟砸到了头，抬头时看见了一双闪着一丝歉意及关心的眼眸。说也奇怪，平时的我应该会大发脾气，盯死他要他赔罪，甚至还会永远‘记住’他，从此让他没有好日子过！然而，这次我却只是默默地望着那对虽不漂亮，却有一种奇特的吸引力的眼睛。我似乎已经知道他一定会道歉，对他不止一点敌意也没有，竟然还有一种莫名的好感。

所以说，我们并没有浪漫的邂逅，更没有轰轰烈烈的撞见。无所谓，反正我们相遇了，也相逢了。

有人说：“Opposites attract”，大概是在说我们吧。我吵吵闹闹，他安安静静。我不害臊，他却腼腆。我外向，他内向。我是一个野丫头，他是一位绅士。

其实，我到底喜欢他什么？我自己也不清楚。可能是初恋吧，所以并没有想太多。坦白说，我最害怕沉默，但是与他在一起，似乎并不在意他的这个“优点”。况且，情人不是常说：“千言万语，尽在不言中”吗？只要彼此了解，这不就够了？所以一直以来，我都相信，我们的感情骤然坚不可摧。

后来，我才发现，其实我从来都没有问过我自己，他到底是不是我生命中那个特别的‘他’。

*****

依稀记得，有一次在海边，我们俩卧躺在沙滩上。他抓起一把沙子，让它们从指缝流出来，忽然转身侧躺着，问了一句：

“以真，假若你可以变成世界上任何一样东西，你想变成什么？”

“嗯。。。我想，我会变成一个漂亮的贝壳，可以天天在海滩上，可以让海水冲得又白又亮，每天看日出、日落，过着无忧无虑的生活。
那。。。你愿不愿意做我身边的一个贝壳？” 我害羞地问。

“不。” 他不假思索地回答。

我惊愕地看着他。我没料到他会有这样的答复。

“我要做那个捡到你的人，永远把你放在我身边。”

我怔了怔，然后扑哧一笑，这也不在我预料之中。

那晚，我们就这样躺着。一个深深的吻把这美丽的承诺永远地锁在我的心中。

*****

真能这样吗？若是，那今日我应该被谁“捡到”呢？那天还会来临吗？还是，我只能独自一人看那无聊的日出/日落？

因为，在那可恶的一天，他致电给我，说明他要出国深造，十分钟后登机。他解释说只能这样道别；如果见面的话，他会舍不得走，希望我明白。

我不！这事来得太突然了！我什么都不知道，什么都不要明白！我的脑细胞只告诉我，他要离去了！那时的我哭丧着脸问他会不会为我而留？他只说了两个字：“再见”。

再见？！好吧，再见！永远的再见！不，应该说不要再“见”！我很恨我自己，为什么要硬着头皮问他那句话。接下来的一周，我都是以泪洗面地过日子。花瓶碎了；我丢的。电话坏了；我砸的。他送的礼物没了；我扔的。扔了之后后悔了，把头埋在枕头里放声嚎哭。

所谓“一日不见，如隔三秋“。被古人说中了。五年挨得好辛苦。五年前的同一天，他使我生命中没了色彩。五年后的今天，我把色彩带回来了，准备也送他一份。

在机场等候处越等越紧张，终于，他的班机安全降落了。我无法掩饰我眼里的盼望；终于等到了这一天，终于等到了‘重逢’。然而，当他一步一步地朝我走来时，我看见了他脸上那忐忑不安的表情。

我也看见了那无名指上闪耀着无尽的刺痛。

琼瑶 is simply too impressive. Not only is her style of writing fantastic, she influences people into the Chinese mode. Heehee. Wrote a little composition. I'm amazed how I still rmb my Chinese. hahaha. A very personal message which I think acts as a reminder for me. Things are easier, simpler when you just hold it with loose hands, no?

Another blessed week. And blessed it shall be. :)

Monday, February 25, 2008

- 11:48 PM

You walked redemption's road,
Carried the weight of my shame...

Wowww. That shout. Shout of victory. I stand on victory ground! =))

Awesome Monday. A restful Monday. Mondays are meant for us to jump outta bed, shout and dance all over the room, and proclaim that hey! Since my 1/7 is given to the Lord, the rest of the 6/7s shall be BLESSED! And so shall it be. ;)

I am so excited, this morning on the bus, I suddenly just felt like........
buying a condo.

HAHA! I know... so random right... [yeah and so impossible, in the natural]

But I'm so excited about this! And you know what, my Daddy is not daunted by the price at all! (Neither am I, in faith =)) Can you imagine, thinking of moving house when we, in worldly terms, can barely afford to even buy new furniture? Haha... my Abba really has a sense of humour, but yes I know You won't be kidding if I say I want a condo and You promise to get one for me. =P

In Buona Vista too, to be exact. Haha... ;))

Tuesday is coming. Work is nearing, in prolly a few hours' time. Haha... I dunno whether I love or hate counting the days, but it doesn't really matter, does it? =) All I know is that my Daddy God IS in control. Woohoo!~

I found it so apt, that Pastor Prince preached about Isaiah 54. Sing... Something that is part of my life, part of my desire, that is talked about ever so sacredly, ever so preciously. It just sorta confirmed my decision to serve in the choir ministry, makes me feel so strongly towards my ministry, feel so loved, feel like I wanna 为这个合唱团赴汤蹈火! Hahaha... okay not that 夸张 lah...

Arghhh. Still haven't gotten outta the Chinese mood, ever since that novel...

But at least I know one thing; love doesn't have to be 你死我活、两人痛苦 kinda love. :) It's the sweetest, sweetest emotion ever in the world.

Still, I wouldn't give up on Chinese romance novels, esp Qiong Yao's ones. At least, not in the near future. Heh =D

Think biggg.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

- 10:59 PM

I'm next.

Mood today: happy happy. Super happy. :))

Haha, well yes, another week has passed beautifully. It's not too much to ask eh daddy, for everyday to be so wonderful. =) neways, after Monday, I kinda felt like I lost the 'feeling' of cultivating His Presence, felt so frantic, haha, trying to find back the feeling. But I guess it's when I don't try, all the more I'll be able to sense Your Presence... You amaze me again with your uncomprehendably simple ways... haha.

And this kingdom will know no end
And this glory shall know no bounds
For the majesty and power
Of this kingdom's King has come
And this kingdom's reign
And this kingdom's rule
And this kingdom's power and authority
Jesus, God's righteousness revealed

Didn't know that this song can be sung so beautifully. Even though we didn't get to sing it during fourth, but it's enough to have practised it. Just like practising Your love for me, reminding me that hey, my papa is the King of all Kings! wahaha... I can 要风得风，要雨得雨! =P

It's funny how when you hold things loose, somehow it just comes when you least expect it. Maybe I'm still not ready for this; but it feels really good anyways... Daddy, protect me still. Hide me in the shadow of Your wings until I'm fully prepared. (:

Today when PJP preached, sowing and everything, you know, one-north just came into my mind. And suddenly I just had this thought, that I wanna lease a place in the building! Yeah yeah, I know. I'm just about to embark on my new school journey rights, when the building is gonna be launched in 2010/2011, I would have just finished my studies, how to start my own business in such a short time...

I only know my Daddy can do all things.

If my portion is meant to be there, and there's a reason why the silly [it isn't, to me though] thought keeps appearing in my 10/10 fully-activated brain, then so be it. He will make it happen for me, I just know it.
But Daddy, if what you wanna teach me is patience, then let me do Your will. :)) I'm nevertheless excited for the plans You have in mind for me!

Kris is possibly right. The things of heaven is so limitless, show me them Jesus, such that the things of the world just pale in contrast. And then maybe I wouldn't mind not having 鱼片米粉 up there. HAHA!

On a random note, 琼瑶 is scaringly influential!!! For those who wants to get into the Chinese mood, read her novels. You'll feel Chinese all over! Haha... and the romantic scenes that she writes... sighhh. Haha... I guess I'm a sucker for romance lahhh (like somebody!) haha. So guys, if you want to learn how to coax or win the heart of your girl... 琼瑶's novels are good references ;) Ironically, if you want to anger her or break her heart, ranging methods can be found in her novels too. Lol.

Speaking of LOL, HAHAHA! Omg I found an LOL-guy! Haha... I tried counting the number of LOLs in his sms-es. "Lol"... =D

And yes! Tomorrow is work-day again! I'm excited to place my life in Your hands, to see what You can do with such an insignificant life. In the flesh, I seriously hate starting the week, so I often have Monday blues, and I hate working, in whichever sense. I just like to wake up late late, slack the day away, with no goal or objective in mind. (Totally not like the Proverbs 31 woman, haha)
But Lord, I know You can transform my life and make it good. So I shall hand myself over to You, and You will take control. Make me good. Make me my best self. Show the world the bestest Ezer ever. The bestest ezer kenegdo. The bestest helper. :))

Okays I'm gg to watch a bit of drama, then off I go to sleep. Running mood tonight, hopefully it'll last till tml morning when I wake up. Haha! Nights! And a blessed week ahead! Woohoo!~

I'm excited, are you? :))

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

- 1:41 PM

Yes. I am at work, and I am enjoying it very much. =))

14Feb08. Prolly the bestest vday so far... haha. :)) What can I say? JCEA guys are just the sweetest ever... I'm reluctant to move up, but yet I'm also excited for the massive changes that are gonna take place in my life! =)))

So I got a Hillsong DVD. YAYness! Joel Houston!!!! woohoo!~ haha... can't wait for JULY to come!!!! Hillsong Conference 2008. I'm super super excited!!!! =P

I hope you can go, too.

Yesterday was prolly the bestest Monday ever. Jesus You make Mondays beautiful. ((: Thank You Jesus, for Your Presence, and your little notes of love all around me. You know what I'm talking about...

outtolunch! =)

Thursday, February 14, 2008

- 12:29 AM

"Jesus likes me. I'm not so sure about his dad."

Pride and submission are not friends. Never been, and would never be. I have Daddy's 24/7 shield of protection all around me, that even my mistakes prosper. Somehow when you're in the situation itself, you just can't see things the way they are? Funny, how Wendy actually talked about a similar scenario just before practice ended. It's like Daddy God showing me, okay this is gonna happen to you later, can you see how dumb the lady was? Don't be like her.

Turns out I was wrong anyway... Thanks Dad, for shutting me up.

When you're pissed, you just can't think straight lah.

I have no success without my Jesus. So what if I used to miss deadlines? So what if I used to do things halfway? So what if I couldn't get anything done properly last time?
I live for now. So take these if You want. I know You can use it to stretch me, to the very max. And because I want to.

I'm no longer a failure. Because I'm occupied by Success Himself.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

- 11:59 PM

"And suddenly the miracle you've been hoping for doesn't really matter anymore; He is the miracle."

Enjoying work. I guess when it's for Jesus, nothing else can really bore you. Haha... work was slow, good, and productive [spiritually, in fact] for me. I love my boss, I love my 2nd boss, I love my colleagues, I love my workplace, I love my job, I love what I'm doing. Point stated. =))

Hillsong Conference registration is still on. I am so excited for the trip, I trust that I shall be exceedingly blessed over there, and favour will just whack me left, right, centre! =) Great expectations I'll be having for the conference, esp the workshops. OMG, think of it, Joel Houston... =P

BBQ was a flop. HAHA. But fellowship was good. =) I love princessy talks. =P

So You set me on Your lap,
Place a tiara on my head,
And said,
Girl, you're my beautiful little princess.
Forever.

I love my princessy life. =)

Monday, February 11, 2008

- 6:36 PM

"Anything that interrupts our communion with God- that hinders the progress of the spiritual life, and that chills our affection for Christ. Anything that does that, we ought to give up. If we are willing to do so, Christ will more than make it up to us. Many Christians seem to have the desire to live as near the world as they possibly can- to have as much of the world as they can, and have Christ at the same time. My experience has been that such Christians are the most wretched people on the face of the earth. They neither enjoy the world nor Christ. They are what are called border Christians, running a little over the line, mingling with the world today, coming back among Christ's people tomorrow."

Isn't it great to have edifying, godly brothers and sisters-in-Christ. I feel so blessed to have so many people around me, constantly acting as reminders for me as I walk my very own journey with Jesus. :)

Yes well the blogging-bug is back again. Makes you wanna blog again. Haha... well my beloved bestie kept 'bugging' me anyways... LOL.

Well, today I went to SIM to get my application done. Yes. One down. =)) Of course lah, I'm so efficient. =D With Christ, all procrastinations shall be procrastinated! HAHAHA... I am so pleased with myself. Hehe... the spirit of excellence passed down from Pastor Prince to me. =)

And facebook is growing mould. Haha.

okbye! =D

Saturday, February 09, 2008

- 11:10 PM

Yeah, well. I just didn't know how to start blogging again. haha... quite a lot of things in mind, just didn't know how to put them into words. Neways, I'm doing it now. So yeah. Haha.

Blessed coming in, Blessed going out. Love this phrase, love it even more when it happens. =)

Chinese New Year, prolly my favourite holiday besides Christmas. Heh. Love the chinese atmosphere, chinese chinese everywhere, omg! This is what Xin Nian is ALL ABOUT! Wahaha~ "embrace your chinese roots". Like I always say... =))

Red. Crimson. At the cross. My Jesus died for me. He who had no sin, knew no sin, was sin for me, so that I can celebrate New Year after New Year carefree, happily, no guilt, no shame, no condemnation. Angpaos? Can't beat the blood flowing down FREELY for me. New clothes? He was naked on the cross, so I can wear pretty nice new clothes.

So glad for today's impromptu gathering, reminds me of Daddy's love for me, loving the fact that it's all about Him. Awesome praise and worship, [no need a full band to feel His presence, really, haha] and just bonding and fellowshipping, feel so endearing, feel so.... satisfied. Seriously I don't wanna move up!!!! =(( But I guess there's always a time and season for everything, and my heart is [more or less] prepared. A new beginning for blessings to manifest in my life in my new cg! =)) Exciting life I have. Haha...

okbye! Off to sleep... Exciting time of serving tml. I can't wait! OMGGGG! =D

It's been four months. too. :)

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

- 12:19 PM

As I entered the office, I took a deep breath and prayed, Lord, refresh me. Not that work was boring, but because Jesus is the one I need everyday. :))

Special thanks to Wan Hua for lending me -prolly the bestest book I've ever read so far- Captivating. Female version of 'Wild at Heart', it speaks exactly what every woman is prolly thinking, and like what WH said, you'll go, 'Yes, yes, amen!' inside of you, and nodding your head excitedly at possibly every sentence you read. Not to mention smiling at every other sentence.

I am so honoured and privileged to be mentioned in one chunk in the book. Haha... ezer=me, ezer=Jesus. My ezer kenegdo. :) Christ who lives in me, literally. I feel so overwhelmed each time I turn a page, so much so that I just can't bear to finish the book at one go; wanna read it slowly [even though I can't really do that], like sucking a sweet till the very last teeny bit disappears.

I wish, I wish, somebody will buy me both Wild at Heart and Captivating. =D

(Digressing, is it just me, or does this post totally doesn't sound like me? Hoho.) Maybe it's the book, that transformed me from a little girl to a woman, with amazing beauty to unveil! =P

2008 has been fantastic. I repeat myself. And it's gonna be better! Woohoo~ Omg and it's only January! Wow. Feels good actually, to be busy all day, get home tired and plop on my bed, falling asleep in less than 10 mins on my pillow, and up again the next day, fresh for work. Like super fruitful. Yes! I wouldn't trade this period of my life with any other ppl! Haha, it may seem like escapism [from studying whatsoever], slacking or whatever, but all in all I'm just glad for the seeds I've sown, the one year of REST, and the 365 days for me to slowly consider what I'd like to take up as my course. (even though I prolly din make use of the first 300 days. LOL.)

And now I'm excited for school life! :) Did I mention that it's only January? Haha~

Dreams. Visualisations. Goals. The things Pastor Benjamin wants us to take hold of. And days later I dreamt of this super weird random absurd dream that will prolly only happen in drama serials! Haha~ Drunken-ness, unexpected conversation on the phone, 'teleporting' to 7Eleven to buy... PEE?!! You know, the sweet with a cartoon character that has a long 'neck', to contain the tiny tablet-lookalike sweets? I chose a purple Daffy Duck. Yeah, I know, RANDOM. Haha. Maybe it was the supper, Kel.

Oh yes. 31 Jan. Haha. My first ever. Buying a REAL concert ticket. I actually wanted to go to the Jacky Cheung concert one! But apparently I didn't cos the lowest was $88. And yet, I just bought a $92 ticket to Switchfoot concert. Wahaha. Me with Revolution. Yeayyy. Coolios. ^_^

Neways, speaking of that, was talking to Daddy God yest; more like feeling 'emo' and lamenting about my 'imperfections', and the sweet Daddy Abba just told me, you know, ezer, your life is planned uniquely. One of a kind. No one else will ever have a journey like yours. Because I have done up your journey with intricate details, opportunities no one will ever have. You never know, while you're envying other ppl's lives, others are envying YOUR life! You're made for something great, and you'll soon find out what that is.

:)

Blessed me, living under the shadow of majestic wings. Wearing forgiveness like a crown. Amazing life I have with my ezer kenegdo. =))

Saturday, January 12, 2008

- 3:01 PM

Take me, Mold me, Use me, Fill me,
I give my life to the Potter's Hand.

Yesterday was simply awesome. [I keep using the word 'awesome'. I guess my vocab is somewhat limited, haha, but with Jesus, He'll provide all the words for me!] I just felt that yesterday's sharing just brought me back to the reason I'm on earth for.

Going for another HA camp, I wasn't at all excited. In fact, I felt so empty when I was there, I actually felt "guilty" for forgetting Daddy God's presence. But Daddy just showed Himself to me. As I looked up at the starry sky, I was so awed by the little glittering ones decorating the vast sky, and suddenly the song Magnificent just came to me.

Who compares to You
Who set the stars in their place

And I was like, wah! God! Who would have ever thought of placing little diamonds in the sky to beautify it? It has to be YOU who made the world!

I could just see His smile.

Every single day I just prayed desperate prayers. Desperate prayers for Jesus to keep me safe, to give me strength to go on, and to totally lean on Him. Really thank Jesus for hearing me. :)

Second day as I went through the telematch with my group, I just felt like doing the duckwalk together with them towards the finishing line. And as I led my group one step by one step, my thighs ached like mad, and I really just felt like getting up and pretending that my job is just to egg them on, because really, I didn't have to do it with them. But I just felt I wanted to finish it together with them, no matter how physically painful it may be. And Jesus' love just washed all over me again.

Thank You Jesus.
Because I saw You at the cross.
Saw the highest price You paid to redeem me.

And I saw how You came down, the Son of God as a man, just to experience all that we are going through, being the head of us all, leading us to wherever our Father wants us to go. And You still carried on no matter how tough it was.

Jesus You never ever leave me. =))

Whatever I've sown in 2007, Daddy You give me harvest in 2008. AWESOME. =D

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

- 10:56 PM

Year 2008!

Blessed new year everyone!

Yesterday as I went downstairs to get a bag of chips [which I haven't done so in eons!], I just suddenly felt that I have so much expectations for the coming year. Visualisations and goals I want to see and achieve, knowing that so many good things are in store for me. I got so excited, and yes, esp for the much anticipated countdown. :))

It's been so long ever since we met up. But the closeness remains. It was just like before, having fun, joking and laughing about those memorable times, catching up with one another and realising how much each of us had grown. The texting of our visualisations in Mac's, and celebrating the countdown with our one and only beloved Jesus. :) I think that was the best countdown ever, holding hands and just praying for the coming year, as we prayed the counting-down began and ended. A brand new year had come, which will definitely fulfil whatever that we had prayed for. I thought that was just awesome, to simply hand the new year over to Daddy God. ((=

Awesome year coming up, Jesus. Thank you. :)

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

- 1:54 PM

Finally I've decided to sit down and clear the mould from my blog. haha. I really love Decembers. Don't you? :) They're always choke-full of fun-filled activities that never seem to stop. With my family overseas trip, adventure camp, and the Christmassy events. Woohoo!~

It's been an awesome year, thank you Jesus, because I'm living for you. Living my Jesus-girl life, knowing that every step that I take, you have already gone ahead and proclaimed it good. I still remember just a year ago, I was still hesitating to join my "correct" cg with Anna, yet now I had received so much from my shepherdess. And also the goal to join choir and receive whatever portion I may have in there, and now, I'm already in choir! God is moving, amen! =)

The adventure camp had opened my eyes about a lot of things, esp anger management [why am I not surprised]. Haha, and I thought it really brought me back to the real reason who I'm doing everything for, why I'm in this world, and yes, life is not all about clean toilets and air-con! Haha, although I'm a rough-it-out kinda girl, but yes, I admit now I do live in luxury everyday! Praise the Lord... the ants in my house are puny! Wahaha~

Yes Daddy, I have a vision. And I wanna live it out for you. I don't wanna be a wake-up-brush-teeth-watch-drama kinda girl. I don't wanna be someone who only gets high in the rock Audi.
I wanna live for you. I wanna live my radical life. I wanna walk this journey personally with you. I want you to carry me when I'm tired. I want to just lie on your shoulder and cast all my burdens unto you.

Thank you Jesus for amazing coaches for the JC cluster. Little reminders dropping here and there, correction, love, Hebron. And yes, comparison kills. Remind me again, Jesus. :)

I guess there's a lot of self-effort to make myself look good [not physically] for ppl to see, behave in a 'proper' way, but when the camera's on you and you're watching your very own life movie, I realise I don't appear the way I want myself to appear to be. The flesh really looks so ugly, and Daddy, I want to be the bestest Ezer you have created me to be, that the glory shines within. Not by my own effort, but because I know the real reason for doing anything, not to look to myself.

My vision is for you, darling Jesus. And, Happy birthday. =p