Singing for His glory.

Friday, October 26, 2007

- 11:39 PM

Just got back from KHATIB (can you believe it?!), feeling super tired. But it's those kind that's also accompanied with an unusual sense of satisfaction, and also a 'burst of energy' [though I'm pretty sure there is not even an ounce of physical strength left after I finish blogging] that makes me look forward to the next day (not necessarily because of the hill-climbing trip).

Now I know what it means to "work yourself off your bones and plop into your bed when you reach home".

But I'm in front of the com anyways...

Another busy day of work [but I like!], and then a rush down to Bottle Tree Park for the H.A Camp briefing. So glad that John Purcell was there; he's like the only one whom I know! But praise the Lord, we mingled comfortably, and were soon exchanging numbers so as to cab tgt to the venue on Monday. Then we sat down in a circle and started to play games.

It started off with a harmless game of "boom chikchik boom chik", and were all having fun. But after that, someone suggested playing "Ouch".

Game explained, it was to, when pointed at, smack the person to your left or right, ON THE THIGH. I was pretty disturbed by it, but inside me I was thinking of gg along with it at first so as not to 1) throw cold water, and 2) fear of man.

But praise God, a few moments later I decided to take my stand against the idea. I really thank Daddy for giving me courage to stand firmly on my ground. And I just said that I don't think it's appropriate for guys to smack girls, on the thigh somemore. Well duh, some looked at me incredulously, like guys hitting girls is a norm, and I'm some conservative weirdo. But that's okay. I'm glad I made a stand.

They didn't get to play in the end, cos some of them wanted to eat dinner.

Yup, it's not even about the pain/redness I'll get from all the smacking, in the past, I'm usually game for such stuffs. But suddenly it just dawned on me, that that was not the kind of treatment a princess should get. To conform to the world's games, to be friendly with the guys because in society now 'rights of genders are equal', etc etc... I just know that I may be IN this world, but definitely not OF this world. And I thank Daddy for the protection He has surrounded me with, like a shield, definitely favour too. =)

And princesses are to be treated with respect. That's why I'm glad for Anna, who always emphasises that to our cg guys, haha! :))

And even if I'm holy-moly, thank you Jesus for reaching out to make a difference in a friend's life, because it matters.

Some stupid conversation in between though, that made me linger in the past. Worldly conversations are usually quite demoralising for me, haha! Now you know why I keep sticking to my NCC ppl. Heh =))

Jesus loves Ezer. A princessy kind of love.
Bukit Timah Hike! Good night, virtual world! :)

Thursday, October 25, 2007

- 10:35 PM

I was reading one of my [worldly] friend's blog, and was kinda affected by whatever she's going through. It just saddens me that she has a humongous inheritance right in front of her, but the worldly materials are like pegs pinching on her 'golden pipes', stopping her from receiving her exceedingly great reward.

I do admit that the things the world offers are greatly attractive, though some in a sadistic way [like, getting popularity... either you make it, or you fail and become an outcast forever.] Yet, I now know that all these things are temporal, whereas God's kingdom is forever. I mean, come on! DaddyGod CREATED the ENTIRE universe!

Don't be mistaken. She's a GREAT friend of mine, and I super love her to bits. But then again, this kind of awesome-ness comes from the flesh, and it is nothing compared to the beauty one could ever get when your spirit glows with the glory of God. Self-reprimand came upon me for a while, and I scolded myself for FAILING to show her the way to salvation.

But, it is when I fail, that's why I will hit the mark. Because Jesus NEVER fails. :)
Jesus, I cannot. You can.

That aside, I am super psyched for this Sat's climb! =)) Not surprisingly, I'm the food I.C! So you guys can expect super yummy food! =D
Enjoyed the grocery shopping with my dad, family is so important to me nowadays. I'm glad. :))

As we were loading the stuffs into the car, to go to NTUC for the ham [because S.S so big, yet dun have the station for fresh ham], Dad gave me his NTUC member card, his NETS, AND his PASSWORD. And the conversation went like this:

Ezer: So, you are giving me your password? I go and 'shua' [swipe] it anyhow ah...
Dad: Okay.
Ezer: Haha you sure ah... I go and 'shua' 1000 dollars.
Dad: You think, this is glorifying God or not lah...

Wow. Although I burst out laughing, I was amazed at the power of DaddyGod. The miracles He can do, and has done them willingly for me. Just the start of this year, we still had the guanyin statue in our house.
Now, my daddy listens to PJP sermons, reads the Bible in his own free time, and even quotes them to me! Wow praise Jesus. JUBILEE is in the House! Even though he still doesn't fully understand about having a relationship with God, I know that one day, the revelation will just sweep him off his feet, and he will truly live the life he was meant to live!

Jesus is so amazing... I stand in awe.

Kay I know the activities in this entry is not really sequenced the right way, haha, but anyways, I've been pretty busy these days. Continuing working for Omega Tours, and loving every single moment of it. [Yes I have work tml yet I choose to take time off to blog about planet-shaking events happening in my life, amen!]

Omega is getting busier and busier, because it's end of the year, there're many Israel trips' documents we have to gao dim in a short period of time (duh). Nevertheless, I'm glad for strength that sees me through the day. I'm glad for grace that covers every mistake of mine. I'm glad for favour that causes my colleagues to like me. I'm glad for Jesus who's there every single moment going through all those admin stuff with me. :)

And I really take my hat off to Zann. She can go without lunch EVERY SINGLE DAY!!! Omg, and she still can tell me she 'doesn't have time to feel cold', when she's wearing sleeveless with the super polar-bear temperature in the office! Eh, just today I realised that she's quite pretty. Haha... I guess thats what the glory of God does to every single woman of God. =P

Don't you think I'm like, super pretty? =D okay just say amen! HAHA.

And, let's just say DaddyGod are opening super HUGE gates for me in the area of jobs! =)) Love it Daddy, thanks!
But I really have super good choices. Like, Rock Bookshop called me. So, Omega or Rock.B?
Praise the Lord. How to choose?...

Jesus, help me.

I shall cast this unto Him. You'll see, everything will turn out fine, and the decision will be made. Easily peasily. ((=

Sunday, October 21, 2007

- 11:35 PM

I am officially in love with Don Club's CHICKEN PIE!!!!!

Awesome peppery flavour, generous chunks of chicken, one WHOLE egg within, melt-in-your-mouth mashed potatoes, flaky-crisp outer crust. yum! =)

Special thanks to Hui Ping who bought a slice, which kinda prompted me to get a slice for my dinner too. Haha... thanks babe! ((:

I give their standard chicken pie FIVE stars! They are located at,
-Far East Square,
-China Square Central,
-Suntec Tower 4 #01-132 [the branch where I bought my very first pie from!], and
-80 Marine Parade #01-K10.
So go and get your first slice!!! =))

Okay aside from that, I got some shut-eye for a few mins during service today! haha... Nevertheless I'm glad to have PJP back in Singapore, back in NCC! Yup I super appreciate the fact that he's OUR Pastor! =))

Lord. Use me.

I guess I compare too much. What is there to compare anyway, since we're all equal? And DaddyGod uses us differently, gives us different platforms for us to sow. Yes Daddy, I'm stepping onto the platform, doing what You want me to do. Teach me humility. Let positions and titles mean nothing to me, Lord. Oh yes Daddy, my EXCEEDINGLY GREAT reward is with You. My reward IS You!

Let me not look unto my own strength, gift, talent, or effort.
Let this voice of mine sing for You, and You alone.
Let Your grace flood me heavily, Lord.
Let the Holy Spirit come into me like rushing waters.
Let me leave room for grace.

Selah. It is well with my soul. It is well with my soul.

I dowan to enter the audition thinking I've done my preparations, I have a fairly good voice to begin with, why shouldn't I pass the audition?
And so it shan't be.

I suck at singing. I suck at auditions. I suck at everything. So Jesus, You take over from now.
Thank You. :))
*breathes a sigh of relief* whew! Okay so that's ONE worry down! Amen! =P

I call Your name.
Your love for me will never change.
Praise Jesus, the love of my life.

Love of my life,
You've never let me down.
You've been there for me,
Each time I fell down.
I turn to You,
When troubles come.
You hold my hand,
Together we run...

Yay. Jesus. Jesus. Jesus... Love love love. My love of my life. THE love of my life. The love found only in Christ. The undefined love. The in-depth love that no man can ever understand or comprehend, yet serenades me like no man could ever do...

You walk with me
You talk with me
You're pleased to hear my voice
Each time I sing Your praise...

Super LOVE Jesus. My righteousness of faith.

And I don't like the thought of calluses forming on the tips of my fingers.

Proverbs 21:31. The Lord gives the victory.

hallelujah.

Today marks the birthdays of 2 guys. Happy birthday one-of-them, Joey. :)

Saturday, October 20, 2007

- 12:34 PM

I thought I would just enter a quick entry just before I leave for ARROW.

Been 'struggling' [with ease, though, because of Him] with being righteous-conscious. It's so subtle, yet so real, that everytime things are done not the way they are 'supposed to be', I get so conscious of whether I can still dwell in the righteous. Even though there's Romans 8:1, I still have to constantly remind myself that whatever 'wrong' I did, do, or will do, they have ALL been crucified at the cross with Jesus...

A certain blog made me think. To cultivate more of Your presence, instead of getting myself more and more lost in the world. To yield, to leave room for grace.

And yes, I realise that I have been taking THAT tone with myself. I shall learn to just hear Jesus, Jesus and Jesus. Thank You Daddy, for giving.

Blessed fellowship just before SOMEONE leaves for Aust for ONE MONTH. The Botanic Gardens is really dark and huge. KF clutching his Bible while tottering around trying to find us.

Sumptous spread of a night picnic, songs on the iPod, guitar and worship, sharing and baring of hearts. It's really amazing how when 2 or more are gathered in His name, His presence can be felt. I know that. :))

Kingdom friendships are just different. =))

Okay I'm going for ARROW! I'm sure I'll get whatever answer I need from the service today!

*groans* must I really go for training? =(

Thursday, October 18, 2007

- 10:59 PM

*cough*ezer... *cough* choir auditions!

Someone nv fails to make me laugh... Part of my life. Part of me. :)

我又读完了琼瑶的其中一本言情小说，<雪珂>。真不敢相信，我竟然连续三天把它一口气给看完了！大概就因为这样，所以心血来潮，今天用华文。 =)

真高兴，能够为Omega Tours做出贡献。
没想到我竟会有机会帮NCC 做事。：)) 的确，这不可能是我“争取”而得到的，而是我的耶稣特别宠爱，给我的。 =)

今天过后，也许我再也没机会在那边继续工作，但是，我可以很肯定一件事；这三天，我做得很快乐。而且，我每天是带着期待与兴奋的心情走进那间虽小，但充满了“NCC 味道”的办公室。
虽说只是短短三日，它们却如此宝贵。我与Omega Tours里的同事虽萍水相逢，但可能是因为大家都有共同点，还有一份为耶稣的心，所以都很投缘。我想，若有选择，我会留下来。

令我感到诧异的是，原本只应做一天临时工的我，居然迷迷糊糊留下做了三天！但我相信，他可不迷糊。这一定是他从中安排的，也一定是我学习过程中重要的一部分。=) Grace Grace. =D

每一次和某某人交谈，或是一起出去，我都会有一种特别珍惜的感觉。也许是因为我们都分道扬镳了，也许是因为她与我都各有各的时间表。不管是为了什么原因，我只知道，原来友谊并不是说和就和，说散就散那么简单。两个人既互相被牵扯，就一定会一起走完这条友谊之道。而如今，与其说是‘朋友’，倒不如说是‘情投意合，彼此了解的好姐妹’。经历了那么多，相处了[特别]多，这段坚不可摧的感情，我知道是天父给予我们的。:))

此篇章乃笔者自提醒，无须多虑。

Friday, October 12, 2007

- 2:32 AM

Am so psyched to meet my best friend later. :)

Couldn't get to sleep yest until 2 plus. I guess my mind's been running. It's like what Ps Prince said, you may be lying down appearing to rest, but inside you, your mind is still racing, worrying about tml, thinking of stuffs, like what . said, introspection.

Been thinking about a lot of senseless stuffs. But I'm still glad that Abba You're still beside me...
Yes, life is too short for me to keep thinking about senseless nonsense! Haha...

Am super glad that I have a time of waiting, a time of sowing... a time for me to really ask myself what do I really want in life. It's not about how many tasks I accomplish in a day, it's not even about how gigantic my tasks are, but it's about how much of Jesus fills me each day.

None of Ezer, all of Jesus.
How needful am I of Him.

Daddy I thank You that your ability to speak to me, is MUCH MUCH greater than my inability to hear You. I know You're teaching me patience. Let my heart then, settle in Your rest, and abide in Your presence, as I await my exceedingly great reward to fall into my lap. Thank You Jesus. Because You've heard me, and You've gone before me.

This season I have to go through. In this season of waiting I will definitely sow. So that when harvest time comes, I'll receive so much in ABUNDANCE!

Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me.
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause.

I know I don't have to explain much. God-Ezer relationship. :))

Thursday, October 11, 2007

- 11:18 AM

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Yes, I borrowed someone's trademark. :)) That's because I realised how little I am, and how it really is ALL about Him. So I have nothing to justify, nothing to show, nothing to be.

John 5:19. Daddy, teach me, to only do the things I see You do.

Was on the way home from Toa Payoh, on Bus 8 I was wondering if I would be able to reach home in time for the 7 o'clock show.
As the bus turned into Ubi, it was only 6:41pm. Praise God, I thought.
And then I heard Him. How about spending some time with me at 7pm?
I was like, HUHHHHHH. But I wanna watch TV! Can't I do it at 8pm?
Daddy smiled and said, but I want 7pm. =)
Oh gosh... I was in a dilemma. Yes I want to spend time with You Abba, and You're more important than that show, but... I still wanna watch!

It was then, that I remembered Bobbie's book,
Live above accusation.
Live above reproach.
Live with discipline.

Undisciplined soldiers perish, undisciplined athletes lose, undisciplined farmers get no harvest. Undisciplined Ezer won't grow.

It's never about Daddy taking away. It's always Him giving. I'm so glad for PJP's teachings, to have a good opinion of Abba. =))

And so, I spent time with Daddy. I'm glad for it though, because it really reminds me of His love washed all over me.
Yes Abba, I wanna spend more time with You. To feel more of Your presence. :) Amen.

There're greater things in life for me to fulfil. And I'm glad that Jesus will be with me throughout.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

- 2:26 PM

So live a life of rest. Have this attitude and tell the Lord, “I can do nothing of myself. I just rest in You Lord, and I trust You.” And what you will see is the grace of God upon you and every situation in your life!

Awesome, timely daily manna. Nothing, Daddy, nothing will ever bring me out of Your rest. And just as rest found grace, resting in You means I'm living under Your grace. And yes, You'll definitely bring me out of the desert into my very own promised land. [and even that land shall be called rest, haha.]

Daddy God, I thank You for the little nuggets You drop into my heart everyday.

I know my decision already. I really do. The desire is dropped in so nicely, the opportunity was brought up ever so naturally, I'm sure You'll prosper my decision, whatever that may be. And yes, it WILL be a place for me to sow into me.

A time of waiting, a time of sowing...
And when the time comes, I shall reap in my multitudes of harvest!

Praise the name of Jesus.

Jesus, You're the sweetest name of all...
You PICK ME UP each time I fall.

I'm under Your grace, so that I can be above Your circumstances! :)

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

- 2:46 PM

With open arms
I stand in worship
Feel Your love's embrace...

What's essential for blessed worship. -smiles-

Yup, finally, JCEA had their very FIRST jamming session!~ Woohoo! It was awesome! Brian Matthias, Joel, Ka Fai, Shem, Christine, Kelly, Ezer... Amazing presence of the Lord. Super love the entire thing, and it was too short! Get ready for Round 2, guys! :))

The guitarists and vocalist [Matthias].

Anointed musicians Chris and KaFai.

2nd drummer Kellyyyy! Haha...

Best of all, the superb vocalists! teeheehee=))
Seriously, I had this voice inside me telling me, even with my beautiful voice [I say AMEN to that!], I'm still nothing. I'm still nothing if I don't have Jesus. =) HE gave me this gift. Thank you Jesus...

Just a random picture just before service some weeks ago. Haha somebody tell me if I shld curl my hair permanently!

Jesus
All my fears they fade away
When I see You

I keep getting distracted by the new album. Haha...

Okay! That aside, cg praise and worship was awesome. Like, TOTALLY. Haha. Fellowship at the cheesecake cafe. I declare that my cafe next time will be even much nicer than theirs! AMEN!

Lovely cakes though...

Laughing at the naughty KaFai and Alvin Lim!

Absolutely LOVE JCEA!

Only You [all]
Can love me like You do... =)

(getting distracted and totally absorbed in the album again...)

It's good, it's good distraction. WAYYYY better than getting distracted by drama serials. =)) Really love this moment whereby I'm totally, completely engulfed in His love, knowing that no matter what, He'll be there to protect me, shelter me, shield me from the elements. And that includes distractions too. Jesus, You're so amazing...

Love love SUPER love the new album!!!

Really, I see Grace. I see grace falling upon me, showering onto me, flooding my heart. Hallelujah. This album, I know is gonna bless so many millions, not only locally, but also internationally! The WHOLE of God's kingdom will be impacted by such anointed songs. Sighhh... I wanna write songs like Karen and Sean too! Daddy give me the gift! Amen!

I will shout my praise
Unto You my King
You're my Jesus
In You I live...

Like Kel and AP, really loved serving, even though it's just packing the cds individually into plastic bags, but I really feel so much for the church, I know we're doing great things, even MYSELF, as I packed the cds in one by one.

Be faithful in the little things, Ezer. I hear Daddy telling me.

Interview tml! The Lord will bless me with favour and grace. Nights!